So Sunday my first time… ever… taking down some measurements so I can compare when I finish a program. 🙈
It was uncomfortable.
Despite being measured by my biggest supporter and best friend, I still felt judged and insecure.
To make matters more stressful, I also had to take starting photos- I literally felt naked, exposed, and so vulnerable.
But I want to know why??
This body that I’m measuring and taking photos of has spent the entire day pulling me up a 3 story climbing wall, and can hold a plank longer, do more pull-ups, and jump higher than before and yet, I’m still uncomfortable. Why?
I want to be honest with you, I think my reason is that I’m still comparing my after-dinner, poor lighting photos to the beautiful morning poses of others on social media.
Is that fair ? No!
Is it their fault? Absolutely not- many of the wonderful girls I follow are very real and transparent about their photos.
But does it happen ? Yes. Still.
So what do I do? Do I get frustrated and embarrassed by the photos and disown them? Absolutely not.
Those photos, regardless of whether I think they represent me well or not, are there for a purpose: to give me a visual reminder of my starting point and as a reminder of how much work and effort I’ve dedicated to my health. It’s the start line of a journey.
It’s not easy, but I do believe it’s worth it. If you’ve ever felt this way, or have to do your own stats, I want you to know it’s nature to feel what you’re feeling, but don’t shy away from it. This is a process, you can never go back and retake a before photo.
And always remember, we all struggle, regardless of where we are in the journey, it’s our minds that get stronger and can help us push through.
We’re in this together 👊🏻💋